Wednesday, July 18, 2007
guess it's time for me to put a stop to all my small girl's wildness.
though many things does happened,
but i do cherish her, the same old thing happens all the time.
i'm not angry neither am i slipping away from you.
lets use our ancient method to solve it, SPEAK UP.
someone has to make the move, this time i took the first step.
she's always the one making the initial moves.
"are you happy?" mum asked me ytd when i told her what happened between me and my best friend.
my heart is really bleeding, i had no idea what had taken over me, but whenever somethings happened, i'll push it aside, refused to open up to anyone.
i grew tired, there's so much i want to make the tears flow. but there's nothing in the end.
i know there's more to face, i want to learn to grow up.
today, simply took the courage, walk towards her and talk to her.
she cried, it really pains me. i didnt know just a simple hug, can resolve everything.
thinking back, why am i behaving like that. why am i so heartless.
i don't want to apologize, the same thing will happen, but this time round, i want to learn how to face and solve the problem.
you need time to change, i need time to learn how to take initiative.
it's hard for me say what i feel,
it's like a door without knot, locker without keys, flower without buds(HAHA!)
i know sometimes, regarding certain things and conflict, i have to take immediate actions.
weather or not, it depends on me. but i simply turn a blind eyes on it.
i'm tired... really really tired.
The journey is long, i cant afford to rest.
