Thursday, May 31, 2007
" sing, as if there's no one around.
love, as if you werent hurt before and will not
work, as if you werent paid for
live, as if there's no tomorrow"
i such a good girl today, in fact i am.
didnt join dajie and alicia for shopping. cause i'm down with fever again.
i realli love to join them, i wanna buy clutch, i wanna buy long sleeve collar top.
just how many times in a month i'hv fall sick.
am i dying soon....guess, it must be lack of exercising.
so i gotta go swimming when i recover.
ENJOY GIRLS!
ps. "I STILL DO"
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
" geri, alicia and siewlin, nv be apart no matter what"the greatest confide i can have, insearch of further comfort and security, they come alive. THANK YOU. life isnt complete without the 2 of you.I LOVE YOU(S)WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.....meet up alicia in the morning. saw larris and ds but doubt he notice us.everyone was already in the lab, we were late.while doing the practical, can i said....i'hv come to my senses.self-experiencing and hearsay' from other sources are two totally different things.so siewlin, dun overestimate things cause the changes can be so drastic, you wun be able to take it.take what you need and measure to only what you're capable in.during physics lesson, tried my best to understand what's going on. get into the mood as soon as i can.keep playing with larris. he's one odd guy i may say.he refused to stop disturbing me even though i pinch his stomach so hard, he turned speechless. but still refuse to give up, he still insist on shining the torchlight right in my face! SIAO!after that. me, elaine and alicia went to viva for lunch.called dad up cause he reach home. "welcome to singapore" thats' my first sentence for him. chat on the phone with him for awhile. I LOVE HIM! elaine left first cause his daddy too, came back from KL. she's off to meet him. chat with alicia. and we happened to see sean on our way back. he cross the road as if he's father owns it. HAHA!chit chat with him and he sent me home along with alicia! thanks both of you.daddy brought loads and loads of chocolate and wine too.reserve one bottle for geri and alicia for our gathering. lets get drunk.chit chat with daddy, talking non-stop, it feels realli good with him at home. mum reach hm from work and we're off for family day.dad had a great haircut.hey! why am i so short. beg him to buy the grey jeans for me and he agree. but DAMN! I dun look nice in it. mum just kept shaking her head!ok. thats about it!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
today is a totally fantastic day!
meet up with cia in the morning. just as we were about to walk towards that dead room, we saw nas, mizan, izzul and one more i cant rmb liao, waving to us and walking towards the school gate at the same time.
didnt ask much, they just tell us to tag along for breakfast!
so we did. saw kc and larris on the way there. and they join us too.
soon after that sean, ds, insane, yiling and elaine join us!
as expected, miss chia blow her top when we arrive late. but we dun care less. DAMN EECHONG! i almost fell down in the library, bang my ass against the corner of the table. IT HURTS MAN! all his fault...
after english come chemistry. after chemistry come FOOD EXPO!
rush down to admiraty mrt to meet up with geri and her mum.
as usual, was damn happy to meet her up. chit chat and laughter all over the place, nvm miss out mockery.(GOSH, RETRIBUTION WOULD FALL UPON ME IN NO TIME)
as i said, "the journey will never be long if you travel with a good frined"
we reach expo faster than i expected.
me and elaine were so hungry that we almost eat up all the food.
eat and eat and eat and eat! all kinds of food.
worship me and dajie pls. thinking back now. cant believe we do such things. things that we do:
1) bullying a small boy who is hardly 7 years old
2)laughing at aunties who talk loudly
3)sample all the food as if it belongs to us (criticise store that didnt provide sample...softly)
4) eat so much as if we didnt eat for days
5)fooling and playing around
but i really enjoy the day! love it loads!
gotta go exercise after it liao, getting fatter and fatter!
OMG.....
Monday, May 28, 2007
ARGH! DADDY COME BACK FASTER PLS!
I MISS YOU DAMN LOTS. YOU AND MY FINACIAL SUPPORT!
i am really in need of cash, i really need to go shopping,
i really wanna fix my guitar and learn all the note.
i really feel like working. i really wanna scream my lung out.
i really wanna do well in my studies. i really need to cut down on my playtime. i really wanna go tokyo for MCR concert. (one and only in asia, but its impossible)
Insane in the membrane
Insane in the brain!
Insane in the membrane
Insane in the brain!
cut all those crap out. i'm taking O lvl chinese today. managable, i may say. still within what i can do, so it aint that bad so far.
after exam, dajie sms me, called me 4 times. scare the shit out of me. i thought what bad is happening, but in the end it was
geri: "hey, exam finish liao ar? wanna come bugis?"
seriously i love to tag along, but circumstances really got me tangled. F**K!
alicia had to attend her "extra lesson", so me and elaine wait for her.
me and elaine was kinda lame. this was what we do, we didnt talk at all,
not even a word. i was buzing into the air, singing songs, emo. then she went walking around the sch.
everyone thinks i'm crazy cause i was singing alone. everyone thinks she was crazy cause she was walking aimlessly around the sch.
HAHA!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
alright! lets talk about ytd...
sat-
meet up with yiling and cia. yeps. i know yiling won't be reading my blog.
but i have to say sorry....
we're having chinese intensive, wasnt really listening, not in the mood.
so i listen to my mp3 instead.
after chinese, join eechong and ds for movies.
pirates of the carribean...erm. i rate the show ok.
wasnt as nice as the previous one. timeframe is kinda long so at times it seem kinda boring.
one thing! captain jack is sooo COOL!
we actually ate mac in the theatre, OMG! didnt realli dare to shake the fries at first...cause it was kinda disturbing. but after seeing ds shaking it so happily. HAHA!
i took the load off my mind!
btw, eeching is such a freak!! everyone was staring at him as if he was some kinda of alien.
so i tell him " sometime, being normal is a bliss"
HAHA!
today-
woke up late today. didnt feel like waking up so i just contiune to sleep.
went out in the afteroon to meet mum. ate lunch and off to buy whatever i need for tml's exam.
gotta set my best foot in front. some goes to all my friends out there!
dad is cuming back soon. miss him loads!
loking forward to tuesdays!
PS: dajie, same goes to you, ur chest will rot if u dun get the load off it!
and and beeped me anytime for the drinking section! loveya!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
what's wrong with everything.
what's wrong with you.
what's that expression on your face trying to reflect.
you said speak out, you wanted to throw words at my face.
go ahead...what's stopping you.
maybe i'll feel a little bit better.
stop dazing in air, stop confusing yourself, stop telling lies.
trying to get everything off my chest,
hopefully thing would get better.
but that's my own thinking all along.
all along i'm the weakest one,
all along my lying to myself,
all along i'm blind-folding myself.
I'M JUST TRYING TO PUT UP A SHOW.
hang me upside down, i just wanna fell the rush of my blood.
i just wanna pop a vein.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
raise up your right hand and say "YES, I'M ALRIGHT"
chinese intensive again. am i studying in a pure chinese school??
"yes, i am" for once and for all. this is the last time i'm gonna take chinese. give in your best shot, guys!
a great day today. at least something different.
after chinese intensive, went straight to geri dajie's house!
we are holding an ABC meeting. they are foods, drinks and....wenzi!!!
i got lumps all over my leg, but mine is nth compared to alicia's one!
but thinking back....alicia granny....is that realli one??
we got serious talks, joke and everything. it was really fun. when was the last time we held such a meeting . craving for beers man, but cant.
i accidentally let out a disgusting burp....geri and alicia fainted! what a big reaction....
geri's mum returned with bubble teas and pizza bread. thanks!!
left her house at about 5.30pm.
alicia ah po talk to me about the unintended unfaithful act. the consequences about it and how it stinks one's reputation. in a whole we are talking abt this the whole day.
alright!....thats about it.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
tomorrow is expected when everyday seems to be the same!alright....basically i'm living a life like that now. chinese intensive.but something different on friday.chinese intensive all day, until wong laoshi release us for some great 2 hrs break.went cwp for break and sean join us.idle around foodcourt, eating and chatting until we forget the time.haha! the holick volcano ice is so damn nice!i wanna drink again!ok....when we chat, it feels like a long lose friend gathering talking abt life and what's gonna happened next...its great lah. after chinese intensive, went to watch the soccer match in school. its our class against other team. i think we won lah! thought i didnt finish watching it!today :wait up so late today. wash up and i'm off to mit kah chee.he's late, so i gotta wait for a while!kept disturbing him and talking non-stop. things are getting better and better.but there are some things that are left untouch for good. no one rank it up, we just treasure what is right in front of us, thought it's hanging by a thread.finally i get to watch movie! catch spiderman 3erm...a great show generally but the duration is a bit too long. i just cant believe what i'm seeing, its funny lah!the couple sitting beside us is.....erm....guys i think we all know it well, what they are up to! but cant they just do it at home! it cause disturbance ok! after the movie, he sent me home. thanks for everything and thanks for today.- no matter what happened, i know what i'm thinking, the 3 words are just directed to you only.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
ARGH!i'm goin insane, totally crazy. no doubt about it!the ear-piercing cacophony kept resounding in my head.alright.... finish venting my anger.lets talk in brief detail abt my story today.basically, i have a taste of what chinese intensive is like.i'm starting to avoid eyes contact with him.i knew he notice it.... just that he choose to remain speechless.suddenly, i felt confident about my chinese. now my english is falling. but i'll do anything i can to keep my english in a statisfactory standard! read read read from now on!he's getting more and more skinny. cant stop worrying abt him, just where and which position do i stand to tell him to eat and do whatever things i tell him to do. when i don't even give a shit abt anything he tell me to do.good lah siewlin, u have a taste of it yourself. serve you right.dont you cry begging him to come back to you when comes a day.btw! steal larris ear-piece home. erm....in a whole. its not a great one compared to sean's one. but better than mine.ipod can project sound system very well, but its not user friendly. however, if given a chance again. i think i would go for ipod nano.OKOK! that's me....never satisfied with what i have!changing blog song soon!
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
news of the day....didnt went to sch today, so its a one day break for me.went to the doctor ytd, i'm dying, completely worn out.didnt eat anything at all, just kept vomitting and vomitting.rush to the toilet almost a thousand time.finally, its my turn and the doctor said my gastric was the cause of it. and guys! its so bloody painful you can die, so dun ever skip meal!alright! cut to the chase, alicia msg me this morning breaking the news to me.i flunk my english! congratulation~~ this means i didnt make it at all if this was to be o' lvl.2nd piece of great news, i flunk my chem paper! congratulation also. this is one of my potiential subs, that hopefully can help me score. and i'hv thrown it away. i'm really really really feeling veri well-prepared to face the MUSIC. whatever music, jazz, hardcore, metal, dead-metal, hardrock, punk rock or emo rock!i'm all down and on to it!i didnt regret not putting enough effort in it, but somehow its like a wake up call to me.i dun wanna end up flying kites so rock on, siewlin. put your best foot forward in the last shot!
Sunday, May 13, 2007
finally, the long weekend had ended.OH SHIT! i really really really dont feel like goin back to school tml.words cant express my fear inside, just how bad i'm gonna score for all the crappy subjects.OH LORD....can someone save me. for once i wont wish for turning back time. cause i know even if someone is to grant me such a wish. i wont do well either.this is what meant to be. and i wont say things like...i'll try my best next time or anything else. its such a turn off whenever i think of it.lets change subs....what is intensive chinese btw. what has it gonna do with improving chinese when chinese is something like english where u have to practise constantly. make it part of your everyday life.wouldnt it be too late to start now....i dont know. just take what it goes.....just where did my motivation go! where is my sense of urgency? it's all gone now.
Friday, May 11, 2007
dissapear, reappearing, dissapear and reappearing.
happy, sad, happy and sad
didnt blog these few days....it was CRUEL BORED.
many things happened, change my life, changes other peoples life.
mid-year exam was a total demoralising issue or a really hard wake up call. slam it in your face, look at what kinda crap you have wrote in between the line.
anyway, i'm prepared to face the music from hell.
lets change the subjects, ytd was desheng's birthday!
its was cool...
first dajie cum my house and then we went out tgt meet up with desheng, eechong and mk.
press ahead our progress, we went marina square for bowling and pool.
alright, from then on, i can assure myself. i'm just not cut out for bowling! i'm totally suck in it, ZERO TALENT!
but its nice of them to keep encouraging me, teach me those technique and lastly patient with me.
after bowling we went for pool. didnt play, only after ds tald me he can tahena anymore. he's really sick, but didnt realli wanna show it so as not to spoil the celebration! after pool, went ahead to sit at the staircase, took lotsa pics. lotsa laughter. i was wondering....maybe i shouldnt have said these. would i behave like this if kc was to join us....
guiping arrived! we dine in seoul garden. this is when the hell of my day start. eechong and me decided to have this stupid race. basically, who ever ate the most vegetable wins the challenge. i thought i would win, gosh!
i really wanna give up, but i didnt! in the end, vomit twice... my image was totally gone. make up smeared all over my face. gotta re-touchup.
these was not the worse of all lah!
did something really ridiculous with eechong in the train. OMG! i really regretted doing it the moment i woke up just now rethinking what i did ytd! i didnt have any alcohol in the first place....so why is this happening!
nvm....that guy is no more than crazy, he's almost insane!
guess i went off track, reach home at 10plus. daddy must be angry! nvm, guess these would be the last time i'm going out after i got back my report card.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
what happened? did someone took away my second soul. someone took my heart away. i knew this very well. i'm cold-blooded. am i really one. or i'm just pretending to be one.
